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[Mar. 23rd, 2006|11:19 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Wings of a Butterfly - HIM | ] |
Sorry for never updating. Life sucks sometimes, and I'm now staying with Sugar. She still doesn't live in the apartment she bought (above my old place; I know Ini and Raleigh still live there, and I think Leo and Lyrom's moved in with them), choosing instead to live in one of the mansions Cricket's clan owns.
Living with Sugar is like living with a cat. I KNOW her dad was a cat, but still. Constant mood changes. Like last night, example. A few months back, Sugar confided in me that Kiki and Will were in the past for her and it was not a topic to ever be brought up, under pain of death. But last night, she was actually grinning over what happened to Kiki, and I was like, "What the hell is wrong with you?!"
Sometimes my life is just weird. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 15th, 2006|10:52 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Psycho - System of a Down | ] |
All I can say is: I've been busy.
Can't really say with what, but I've been busy. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 2nd, 2005|01:31 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | tramuatized | ] |
I sincerely apologize for never updating. I do. There's just been too much to do and not enough time to do it in.
I think I've had it with intimate relationships. They always seem to go wrong if I follow through with them. Sorry, 'Wraith, don't mean to be a heartbreaker, but there it is.
And no. I'm not sleeping with Rafe. And I haven't been. That's not why I'm quitting intimate relationships.
But you know what's really funny? The whore has found a - dare I say it? - a boyfriend. No, I didn't believe it either, even though I continuely watch them. Snuggling. On the floor. In plain view.
apparently, the first time they fucked, it was on the doorstep, holy heavens above |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 12th, 2005|01:59 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  cynical | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Better Days - Citizen King/In The End - Linkin Park | ] |
I don't know if I can take much more of my life. Nah, this isn't a cry for attention; it's not a "I'm going to kill myself!" comment. Just a note that I don't know if I like my life anymore.
Moved out of the apartment I shared with Rhys. Not entirely sure if this'll be for the good. Did move in with Rafe. Completely unsure if THIS is a good idea. Sugar's about ready to have my head. Not because I'm living with Rafe instead of taking her up on her offer (There's probably SOME string attached XD) or that she's miffed because her visiting me gives her a good eyeful of a young werewolf instead of a vampire. *shrugs* She's just about ready to have my head.
My job, as usual, sucks. I'm STILL on the same take (it's got multiple parts, I swear. And how did Caith fuck up to merit us getting this one, I wonder?) I was earlier last week. Rafe's now helping with that.
I think my heart's now somewhere beneath a couch somewhere, shivering and shuddering. That's it. I give up on love and affection.
...I have nothing else left to say. G'night. *sigh* |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|12:09 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | heartbroken | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | No More I Love Yous - Annie Lennox | ] |
I honestly think my heart just broke. I think it just jumped right out of my chest, landed on the floor and shattered into a million, billion pieces.
And no, I'd rather not talk about it; it involves seeing someone I'm still madly in love with but now I think he utterly hates me, but just being nice to me.
I'm going to go cry myself to sleep now. G'night, everyone. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 2nd, 2005|10:59 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  embarrassed | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | My Sherona - The Kinks | ] |
..I just found out what the hell's in cum.
*DIES* |
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| Sorry, I've been dead.. |
[Feb. 17th, 2005|01:14 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | No Son of Mine - Genesis | ] |
1. When and how did we meet?
2. Have you ever seen me with my shirt off?
3. Have you ever seen me cry?
4. Describe me in four adjectives.
5. If we could spend a day together what would we do?
6. Have we ever gotten in a fight?
7. If you could give me a present what would it be?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What do you really think of me?
10. Have we ever kissed?
11. Has there ever been anything you wanted to tell me, but were scared to?
12. Wanna makeout?
13. Name one thing you don't like about me. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 6th, 2005|12:42 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| | embarrassed | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | still Caith, still talking into his coffee.. | ] |
...
In the year 2005 I resolve to:
Not strip for free anymore.
| [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<p [...] style:"font-size14px;padding:0;margin:5px>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] ... <table align="center" style="width:300px;border:1px solid black;background-color:white;color: black;margin: 10px 0 10px 0;"> <tr><td><p style="color:black;font-size:14px;padding:0;margin:5px 0 5px 0;text-align:center;"> In the year 2005 I resolve to:<br>Not strip for free anymore.</p> <p style:"font-size14px;padding:0;margin:5px 0 5px 0;text-align:center;"> <a href="http://resolution.geek-foo.net" style="text-decoration:none;color:red;">Get your resolution here. </a></p></td></tr></table> *DIES* |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 6th, 2005|12:35 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  devious | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Caith muttering into his coffee | ] |
In the year 2005 I resolve to:
Only use the back door.
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 5th, 2005|12:41 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  horny | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Who Said I Would - Phil Collins (playing in my head) | ] |
I want this. Someone buy me it!
Or this.
Either's nice. I just WANT. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2005|08:18 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| | horny | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Losing A Whole Year - Third Eye Blind | ] |
You Are 29% Pure!
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0 - 19% Pure: If you haven't tried it, it probably hasn't been invented yet.
20 - 39% Pure: You haven't every kinky thing in the world, but you aim to!
40 - 59% Pure: You're a bit of a closet pervert. Who knows what else is in your closet? ;-)
60 - 79% Pure: There's a wild beast in you... somewhere. Let it free
80 - 100% Pure: You're not as innocent as you look - but still pretty innocent!
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How Pure Are You?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
( more behind the cut ) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|01:00 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | cranky | ] |
You know, I'm not even sure what I want anymore. I'm confused, if that's even possible for me.
Bah. No, I'm not confused. So, ( let's discuss me. ) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|09:34 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  content | ] |
So I had this great idea for a facial: Chocolate pudding.
The idea lasted five, maybe ten minutes, before I realized why it wouldn't be a good plan.
*licks chocolate pudding off his fingers* |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|01:36 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| | cold | ] |
Ugh. So it can't be said that I don't update.
I've had nothing witty to say lately. Life's going up and down and down and up, and here I am, watching it fuck me over. Gah.
More news later or whenever I feel up to it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|01:04 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | discontent | ] |
Books with bisexual vampires in them do not do a thing for one when one is infinitely depressed. *sigh* |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 1st, 2005|11:36 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| | crappy | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Dragula - Rob Zombie | ] |
I've been quiet now for a few days. Mostly because I spent my holidays with Caith's family, and it didn't feel right to move away long enough to update people on how I was doing.
But now, I've come to a conclusion: I've really managed to fuck up, and I somehow managed to piss off someone upstairs.
*sigh* |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 25th, 2004|02:30 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| |  worried | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | 'Wraith | ] |
life fully intends to fuck me up the ass. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 19th, 2004|01:15 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | distressed | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | Jumper - 3rd Eye Blind | ] |
I do not like daywalkers. I do _not_. I went for a walk earlier with one of Caith's younger sisters, and this daywalker (I KNOW what nightwalkers smell like; this guy did NOT smell nightwalker-ish in the LEAST) bumps into me. Did I get an apology? No. This was one of the daywalkers in Belladonna that don't understand that nightwalkers also live here.
I hate arrogant assholes, I loathe most daywalkers.. No, I can't say I hate arrogant assholes. I like Rhys. A lot. Hell, it could even be love. I think I've admitted it, even. *sigh*
I just wish everything would either work out or not. I want to move on, but I can't. ..'Wraith and Ocelot are right. I do have a lot of strings attached. ><
It's just, I can't help but wonder that if I move on and wind up with 'Wraith, what if I see Kin and Rhys? I'd be fucked, because I'd want to go back, but I'd feel bad because I'd hurt 'Wraith.
WHY THE HELL IS LIFE FUCKING WITH ME?! *sob* |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 19th, 2004|12:42 am] |
| [ | current mode |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | current tune |
| | No Son of Mine - Genesis | ] |
[x]= yes
[]=no
[x] kissed someone.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[] shoplifted.
[x] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[x] broken a bone.
[x] got hit by a car.
[] snuck out of your parent's house.
[] been arrested.
[x] gone in a mosh pit.
[] stole something from your job.
[] celebrated new years in times square.
[]had a crush on a teacher.
[] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[x] been to europe.
[x] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue.'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[] cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on
[] had a sweet sixteen.
[] had your tonsils out.
[] had a car.
[] Totaled a car.
Do you...
[] have a bf.
[] have a gf.
[] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[x] think youre attractive...depends
[] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[x] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] have hobbies.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument.
[] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color blue.
[] like the color pink.
[] cyber.
[] claim.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[] have long hair.
[x] have short hair.
[x] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop.
[] have a pager.
Are you...
[] ugly.
[x] pretty.
[x] inbetween.
[] Handsome.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] Polish.
[x]Irish.
[]German
[] Italian.
[ ] Black.
[ ] Spanish.
[ ] Asian.
[x] short.
[] tall.
[x] realistic.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad.
[x] lazy.
[] single.
[x] taken.
[] looking
[x] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[x] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[x] annoyed.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 18th, 2004|01:08 pm] |
| [ | current mode |
| | cranky | ] |
..on a side note to the last entry, I woke up with one of Caith's sisters on my back. Normally, I'm not surprised by this, but she's a little girl. There's only so much one can do to NOT look like a pedophile. x_x
..but yes. Fate, stop fucking me over. |
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